Rant of the day...

I usually call my rants 'Monday night rant' or in this case 'Saturday night rant' but I think I may just go with rant of the day. I don't rant everyday, but I also don't blog everyday either...

Anyways, there is a particular toy I am after for my little guy for Christmas. It is the Fisher-Price Little People's Wheelies Stand'N Play Rampway...such a mouthful but it's cool. I have seen ads on TV for it and when I got the holiday flyer in the mail from Superstore there it was and for a pretty decent deal too. I was so excited to get this for him. So the next time I went to town I looked for it. There in the toy isle on the shelf was the tag, with the price in yellow to show that it was on sale ($37), but to my disappointment the spot was empty. I asked an guy who worked there if they had anymore in the back and he was pretty sure it hadn't come in yet but that stock day was Saturday. So I thought, no problem I'll come back another time. Well I went back later and the spot was still empty. This was probably a week or so later. By this point I was getting a little frustrated to say the least. Where was the toy?? There was a spot all ready for it, why wasn't it there?? Why would they even bother to make the spot and put on the sale price if they weren't even going to have the item in stock?? I figured since they had the spot and the yellow tag all ready to go, that meant they'd be getting it in...wouldn't you think the same thing??? Anyways, I was back over in town today and thought I would check to see if it was there and guess what I found??? Not only was the shelf still empty but the sale was now over too, which means when and if they ever do get this toy in stock, I'll have to pay full price for it!!!! What's the point in advertising something and even making room for it and marking it in yellow if you're not evening going to have said item while it's on sale?? Doesn't that seem a little ridiculous?? Needless to say, I was pretty pissed off...
I wonder if this toy even really exists...

The time is near...

So I need some help. I've got an appointment to get my hair done next week and I'm kind of at a loss as to what I should do. It's been a long time since I've done anything with it. And let me tell you, it is time for a change!!! I was thinking of getting it trimmed up/cut or maybe even an entirely new style altogether and some color. Now I don't know if I want to dye every hair on my head, but I definitely want some color in there other than just brown. Darker, lighter, maybe some of both, I'm not sure. All I know is that I need a perk me up.
Any ideas or suggestions would be great, I would love to hear them!!!

P.S. I found this picture on we heart it...there are some fabulous pictures of hair there, but I would love to hear what other people think and not just what I think :)

Thoughts part 2

OK. I've received some feedback from my last post 'Thoughts' and I really appreciate it. But I don't think I expressed myself clearly though, or maybe I did. I'm not entirely sure. I'm in major need of something new in my life, some kind of change. Could be as simple as a haircut or as drastic as moving to a new city. All I know is that something needs to change. And maybe that skewed my thinking in the last post in a direction I didn't mean for it to go.
But what I wanted to clarify is that despite my pondering on how things could have been (you can't help but wonder and think about the 'what ifs'), I wouldn't change anything. I love the things I have done. I loved University. I even miss it sometimes. I guess I was just thinking that I didn't need to go to school and get a degree to be happy with my life (especially because it's useless and I'm not using it. Not much one can do with an English Major besides teach or write...). I just think that life doesn't have to be so complicated and that most of the time, simple is best. I feel like I've made things in my life more complicated than they needed to be. And I was just thinking that simple might have been a nice route to take. I don't regret my education though and it's not my student loans that are the problems. Choices that seemed good and right at the time were made and in hindsight, weren't so great. That's life. It happens. I just need to make smarter choices in the future ;)
And as for the car and house and trip thing, I totally realize that lots of people may look put together on the outside and are struggling just as much or even more than I am. Debt comes in all kinds of forms and so does the stress that goes along with it. I think that thought about wishing we were able to have a newer car or a house or go on trips came from the fact that I need a change. The new to me car that I just got SUCKS ASS and I feel so ripped off by it and I'm bitter about it, really really bitter. And as for the house, I love our little house. The only problem is that it's too little and we've outgrown it. And doesn't everyone need to get away once in a while???
Anyways, I don't regret my choices and I wouldn't change anything, but I was just thinking about some of the 'what ifs' and how things might have been.

Thoughts

I was on the ferry headed over to town the other day and I got to thinking about life. I do love my life and all of the things that I have done, I believe, have lead me to where I am. But I couldn't help but think if we hadn't moved away or if I hadn't have gotten the university degree and had instead just worked or perhaps taken something different - if I had of done any or all of these things differently or just not at all, would I still be here?? I like to think 'no' but that's probably just because it consoles me a little bit and makes me feel better about some of my stupid choices along the way. (I would hate to think that by changing just the smallest thing that it may change the end, like we wouldn't still be together or may not have our son or something like that). But I think what I'm really bothered by is the amount of debt that I (we) have. Student loans, lines of credit, credit cards. It feels endless and some days I truly feel like I am drowning in it. So I was thinking how nice it would have been to just have gotten a job and worked and saved and done things the normal way - buy or lease a car, buy a house, have kids etc. I mean, I didn't need to go to school to get a job. True, the job I do have is one that you need more than just high school for but what if I'd just worked or done something else??? I'm not really complaining about anything other than the debt. I loved moving away. I loved living and working there and then coming back to the island and starting the next chapter of our life here. I just wish we could have avoided some of the excess bullshit here and there. I guess I just find it hard when I look around and I see the 'togetherness' of other people's lives and I can't help but wish that for me and my family. Wouldn't it be nice to have a newer vehicle that I didn't need to worry about, or perhaps our own home, maybe even the ability to go on a trip or vacation *sigh*. One day...
But for now I will just be grateful for what I do have - an amazing husband, an awesome little gaffer, 4 fabulous cats, and wonderful friends and family. What's a little debt when you have all of that other good stuff, right???